Pain
As I was laying in bed wondering how I would motivate my aching and sore body to get up and bike to the gym I remembered what it was like to be in a wheelchair, sitting in a dark room looking out a window at people running in the sunshine. Pain is not tight hamstrings, shin splints, or even a gasping-for-air-shocking-wave-of-horribleness rolling through your spine reminding you that you were once split in half and ran the eff over…no, pain is just a flash of consciousness reminding you how invaluable your life is. It is there to challenge you. Lord knows I am strong enough for the challenge because I can’t lose. It’s not a possibility, my mind is stronger than titanium and my heart will take over if my mind is tired. DO WHAT YOU LOVE, LOVE WHAT YOU DO, AND NEVER GIVE UP!
Since July…seriously proud, and this is just the beginning! 28lbs down since April, I can run for 2+ hours without pain, it’ll take a lot more than a van running my body over to slow me down!
When the first tire was rolling over my face and neck I truly believed I was going to die and I didn’t think about my things, my career, my insecurities or accomplishments, the only thought I had as it got very bright around me and i was looking down at myself was “please don’t take me, let me tell my family and friends at least once more that I love them, I want them to know without a doubt if I wasn’t here I’d that I’d love them for all eternity and I’d be there with every laugh and smile.” My purpose is to share love and happiness above anything else. I’m certainly not perfect and have bad days but it’s nice to have this experience to remind me what’s most important. Tell someone you love them today, they might not be here tomorrow.
